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Treaty

It does not need for a contract to be written in black and white. I get a hold of a certain debt when they give me QMR as a response to a technical responsibility that I asked for. Although that’s how I understand the “treaty”, some could argue that, it is also their task to shape one’s career path as what the onboarding posts.

It is not pleasant to run away with something that I haven’t started. QMR is something new. Until now that I’ve done the first dreaded month of patching and upgrading, there is so much to learn in this area that I haven’t bumped into yet. Process wise, I’m over. And it’s over since we had just established a new process on handling patch and release management to relatively irksome customers.

Maturity of Processes

When I dive here in the pond, processes laid down have been established. Of course, this quality of service was sold to big time customers. Even being the service provider, I am impressed on our procedures listed on the ITIL. It’s more encouraging to contribute on polishing up such processes because it’s prone to frustration to introduce new methods to a company owning a less standardized processes. However, if it happens that one manages to kick one for the latter, you’re big time!

If one is leaning more on the technical aspect of SAP Basis, maturity of processes is certainly a factor. It makes the job easy because one would not have to think on it. And as of the moment, since I want to concentrate on building my technical skills, less engineering of processes should be served in my plate.

Friends

Definitely, they are the biggest reasons. Oh yeah, decisions must not depend on one’s friends since at the end of the day, one will left his own workspace and make way to home alone. But then again, in the middle of day of frustrations and satisfactions the work had brought, friends are whom you shared these. I could not take others’ emphasis on informing the managers first before my friends on these delicate and heated decisions unless the managers are my friends (which should be the case if they only know how to manage their social skills).

Unfortunately, it seems the ball was passed on the Parokya. Month after month, the headcount of the barkada is descending. It is really emotionally painful to create a memorabilia of friendship and financially aching to organize a send-off party. I don’t want to end up on a time where no one could give me scrapbook and the like.

Jannie is right that it would really be hard for someone to win the attention of a new crowd even you have a good sense of mingling with others. I am a people person but it takes time to take the centerstage. When I attended computer science as a shiftee in college, I got no constant barkada for two years. It was only on the third year that I learned what to sing on the centerstage and be a star.

I have a hitlist. If all of these people leave, then I will go with them.

Tests and Learnings

I want to be a better manager someday – who knows people management and has technical skills. If all of these tortures in balancing work and life outside work hone my management skill, then I’ll charge it to experience. This place is certainly a learning ground especially hardcore SAP Basis plus having mentors in the persona of Taweng and Pam, I’m ready to step up to be a leader with the brain and the heart.

Similar to an academic institute which one leaves behind after x years of learning, this goes with here. The school and student will part ways unless this place is like University of the Philippines, worth serving for. Let’s see.

I do not believe in the proverb on being a jack of trades is a master of none. There are two ways to learn – specialization or generalization. I am immersed in the generalization-type of environment in UP. For example, we are not presented with two or three programming language but a more than a dozen I think, it’s all up to us how to apply a knowledge in a certain problem. This is what I sense here. That’s why if I would be given a change to take in all of TeG courses, then I will be happy.

So Called Other Life@

If time will allow, there are several fun at’s and life at’s to be enjoyed. Pouring creativity out in news writing for example made a brain section not to remain stagnant. I’m not sure if publications exist outside (but even it doesn’t I will create one). Other groups that I joined also became my venue of sharing the leadership and membership skills. These are also my sources of instant rewards and recognition.

Last Notes
If there are good things that are happening along, one of which could be the level of maturity this brings to me. As I expose myself and as I listen to wise people around, more and more arguments are coming in that I find valid and true influencing my decision making.

I fall five reasons short to Why To Sway.